I was in the middle of an altar call. I was searching for some sort of encouragement, that God would use one of these pastors to confirm and speak into my life. I prayed under my breath, "God, please hear me. Please pour out your love on me." I heard him reply, "Anuhea, in private I will pour my love on you, but now, you need to open up your eyes to the hurt around you."
This is my purpose here. It reminds me of a prophetic word that I received this summer:
"you arent like the weak lamb that needs constant care. You are like the Shepard. this role requires more responsibility...the one always helping and rarely receiving help. God chose you for this role because He knows you can and will handle it."
I am so humbled that God would pick me. This role I know, breathes life and brings healing, I'm so honored that God would entrust me in this capacity. These hearts are of high importance to Him, so they must also be to me.
I try to be strong for others and for myself, but my heart needs strength, support, encouragement, care, grace, understanding and most importantly - unconditional, unending, all encompassing love, as I stumble my way through this process.
